transitions
I hate transitional periods. I haven’t experienced one like this before. at the end of every school year I knew that a new year would begin at the end of the summer. but now it is summer again and I know that no new semester is waiting for me at the end of august. the buzzword is uncertain. I have never felt this uncertain before. at the end of the month my lease is up and I have to move home. for how long? I don’t know.
ever since I began college, maybe even before, whenever I was at home for an extended period of time I felt like I was in limbo. not doing anything, just waiting. but now the only thing that I am waiting for is for me to make a decision.
I HATE making decisions.
I have a hard enough time deciding what type of toothpaste I should buy. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I’ve been avoiding the decision so far. that hasn’t exactly been productive. but right now I don’t even know how to start. I’m stuck in a cycle of denial, waiting for someone to tell what comes next.
so what comes next?
